Don’t Bury Your Head in the Sand

This will be a slightly different post than I planned when I typed in this title for this week’s discussion post. With the personal things that happened to me in a span of a week, this post title now looks very prophetic. This is going to be a very rambly post, but please bear with me.

Things change in a blink of an eye.

I normally don’t talk much about what I actually do in real life on this blog, only that I am a registered nurse. If you’re not in the nursing field, you won’t really know that there are nursing jobs that are not the traditional ones that we normally read about in books and movies – my profession is one of those.

Unfortunately, we have been deemed expendable, at least the department that I worked in was.

So here I am looking at the title of this post and wondering what I was thinking this post was going to be about. I don’t seem to remember what I planned to write, so I am writing this instead. It is a very appropriate title, don’t you think?

The only person that has your back is yourself.

In a profession where a majority of the people I work with are fellow Filipinos, you would think that we would look out for each other. Instead, I don’t see it. And the most disappointing thing is, they lie to you to your face.

Lucky for me, I saw the writing on the wall and read the room. But despite that, I didn’t expect them to stab us behind our backs. But the others who believed their empty promises, didn’t and were not able to plan accordingly.

While I know the people making these decisions had reasons to, I expected them to have the decency to give us a heads-up and not give us mixed signals and empty promises. That is really what has me upset.

Am I bitter? Yeah, maybe I am because I never expected things to go down this way. We were totally blindsided and this really left a bitter taste in my mouth. So, while I’ll still be okay, and I’ll quickly move on from this, the experience will leave a mark. It will be harder for me to see the best in people. This was a bitter lesson that I learned too late.

I hope they didn’t sell their soul for the amazing opportunity they were afforded.